not a fighter

finally got my gold for ippt last week, wasnt that easy, but not that difficult too..it's all in the mind really

sounded out to sgt shaun that i wanna go to the leaders course but he said i'm too quiet.. and lok wei told me if i really wanna be a leader i really have to present myself, and kb more.. and he said 'either u want to be urself, or excel, choose one'

guess i'm just liddat.. still the same, what's being a person to me, maybe i'll just be forgotten in years to come.. maybe the impression that i've left isnt significant afterall

what vincent told me was really right, since i've already expressed my interest, i should do more.. not like those things i do in the bunk during standby, he says i do alot of things, positive abt everything and what i lack was a chance to prove myself

haha i beg to differ.. i'm not a fighter, but rather a sucker.. i suck everything up.. kenna fuck, lan lan suck it up.. tear gas chamber already suffering like mad but was the last to go out the chamber still suck it up.. kenna posted to changi which i originally should be attach and i've already suck-ed it up

ytd while waiting for the shuttle bus to tanah merah at changi.. the bus driver stopped and while i was walking towards it, the door started to close and the bus drove off.. i see liao damn sian but still i cant do anything abt it

maybe one day there's another variable appearing in the equation which has only space for 2, i might just become a fighter