a post

and i hope it would be a good one

many days passed by, and posts followed. many of which are just whining abt army, and probably the next few would also be. being in a f*cked up camp, with unreseanable regimentation, out of the world discipline, certainly makes life sucky.

in my opinion, the course that i'm doing is much tougher than ndu, physically it's nothing much but the regimentation.. not tough but is sian

nvm abt that. wanted to tell a story of a deaf and mute man and his father. ever since he was brought into this world, maybe 'the creator' rob him of his ability of speech, his dad nv gave up on him, raising him up till now.. it wasnt easy but they did it and they shared this special bond, perhaps no one could understand

until one day his dad fell ill, he was worried, and seeing him staying with his dad in the hospital, visiting him everyday.. couldnt even hear the news whether his dad is fine, he could only wait for the day his dad stand up on his foot

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21 soon and growing responsibilities piling on my shoulders, many decisions to make, and i've already thought of some, and certain sacrifices to make

so does one make a decision thinking he only has one life to live or to make a sensible decison? i want to live this way but the other way is the 'right' one

so what if u made a wrong decision? u still gotta live with it though doing a reverse is an option but it would take a long time



ahahahahaha

emo people makes good blogger, dunno why long time nv feel emo le maybe till then there will be a good one

2009

woo the first post for the year of ox.. haiyo reading back all my older posts, my stye of writing changed so much, becoming more and more grumpy, maybe is affected by someone :x

hai so sway fell sick on the 3rd day of the year, now feeling so terrible but still got the strength to blog :/ coz slp also slp le, eat also ate le, watch tv also no show.. what to do?

the year of 2008 sure is good, thinking back lady luck was really smiling at me, and now there's a lady smiling at me.. and just now there's a lady that came to my place and i was smiling :)

argh so looking forward to next week, hopefully the sick bug will leave me alone !@#$%^&

(archive)
breakthrough artist of the year:
tied with 393 votes from me, these 2 artists shook the world

first up is benji hughes, abit of folk, blues rock i will call it, this guy spent few weeks of my life looking for his songs, to the extend that i almost bought his songs on itunes.. but in the end i got his album on some chinese website but doesnt have the song that i was looking for!!



next is yoga lin, he rocks my world after i heard his shen mi jia bing at kbox.. after which the files, out of nowhere appeared in a folder named 'sharing'

watch the first season of the xing guang after that and certainly this guy got talent

ok next is comeback artist of the year
this award goes to j mraz.. the latest albums, i cant find anything bad to say abt it.. all the songs were damn nice, the first single, i'm yours though i dont really like it.. if u havent heard his album, i would recommend the first song, live high and if it kills me


We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things

and ya the band of the year goes to... urm i also dunno who it should go to.. with so many good bands around maybe secondhand serenade deserves it? emo rock band with the hit fall for you.. cb who wont fall for them?

cover song of the year: david cook always be my baby
if he sings it to me i will be his baby that time my fren in camp sang this while playing his guitar, he look so different than his usual self -_-"

yea that's all for 2008 maybe there's more

cheers

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and that's a middle finger, dedicating it to the incredible saf

ok this might be confusing.. me, supposed to go sea soldier course, then go back to semb camp to become qm (quarter master) for the rest of the 2 years, one day duty, one day off and one day standby workshift, kinda cool and i'm going on march (for the course).. but in the end the manpower branch cock up and it turns out i have to go sea soldier course and say bye bye to semb, and the workshift is 7 days duty, 2 days off and 5 days standby, 4 days of rest every month wwwwwwwooooooooowwwwwwww! and worst thing is i only got to know ytd and the course starts on mon! which means i have to fu*king do my clearance today

cb fu*king hell ask me go back do clearance for all my stuffs during my leave, what's worst is almost half of the in charge(s) are also clearing leave.. woke up early, not getting enough slp, carrying the duffel bag ard like an idiot.. ccb then the documentation clerk isn't in sg so i asked the chief clerk to help me sign the clearance form (as i wont be going back to semb camp anymore) then nb that bitch told me she wont sign the form then i said, but i wont be coming back.. then she say u wait for the doc clerk to come back then ask him sign !@#$%^& which simply means i have to go down to semb camp again as a visitor just to get a signature.. cool

24 hrs, 8 hours slp, 6 hrs for this expedition, 10 hrs of my leave left ahahahhaa booooo saf boooo

just now i had the mindset, the next person that gets me pissed, he/she would probably get it.. but after thinking through for awhile, why get so frustrated over the matter, just wasting my energy

oh and one last thing, doing office work is really tough, especially in ns, so pls respect ur frens or anyone that are doing admin work, they really have limited resources, and they still need to get their work done... RESPECT, salute to my fren civilian qf woah

fluctuating direction

and sea soldier, that is what i'll become very soon, but after the course, sembawang camp will still be my home for the rest of my service..

this week have been weird, and was kinda 'high' and not being myself since tuesday.. part of it was due to the life of shoko, the woman in yakuza moon.. very nice book and recommended by half of the ooc cohort.. quite arousing, but in a sad way

nvm abt that, u know, i always like to bet everything in my life, and this time, i'm gonna bet something again.. and deciding it with a 5 cents coin, the same age, as i am.. so here it goes:

i'm not flipping the coin yet, leaving for the end of this post..

always been taking the back seat of the car on the journey to the end of my life.. all my decisions were based on intuition, feeling, nothing which i really wanted? (not true to a certain extent) when people ask me, where to go eat? i would usually say anything, go with the crowd or something liddat.. this time, i fired the chauffeur and decided to get my hands on the wheel, which feels kinda good.. maybe sometimes when i dont know which way to go, i will still let go of the wheel and let it steer to the direction it wants to -.-

anyway, the extraordinary power i'd like to possess is not longer to read minds, but in a similar way, which is the ability to manipulate electric pulses and let them run in ur veins, enabling me to read minds and doing other things in addition -.- whatever

feel like making a change to my blog but dont know how it'd be like, once it is done, i guess it'd be a complete change

tried to take a pic of the result of my coin, but the result was too blurr

people

having served ns for close to 4 months, i've already seen some of the most fucked up, selfish, proud people in my life.. quite an eye opening experience but we cant possibly change everyone to behave the way u like ya? oh and if u think u are the laziest person in the world, u will be shocked feel that u are the most hardworking one in the cohort, or maybe the more hardworking ones

went to visit my injured fren, his gf was there, and his parents reach after we went for awhile.. i didnt did any of the talking, just somebody wth a certificate of participation.. but i know they had been there everyday after a hard day of work, looking at their son recovering..

my gramps isnt in a good state either, and i wouldnt want my sis's missed calls appearing on my hp screen....



and yes, gray would be a nice colour of the mood right now

a horrific accident happened in camp this week, while we were playing bball.. a friendly game ended up a tragedy, with the prize of winning so meagre but the price to pay is way too much..

a hard knock on the mounting step of the pull up bar, on the cheeks, with exposed teeth and dislocated jaws and a pool of red.. a loud cry signals bad omen, a decision to play in the other court was a wrong one..

the scene keeps replaying, but why must it happen?

i wonder how his parents would feel, his gf and loved ones with us, being frens are already affected