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and that's a middle finger, dedicating it to the incredible saf

ok this might be confusing.. me, supposed to go sea soldier course, then go back to semb camp to become qm (quarter master) for the rest of the 2 years, one day duty, one day off and one day standby workshift, kinda cool and i'm going on march (for the course).. but in the end the manpower branch cock up and it turns out i have to go sea soldier course and say bye bye to semb, and the workshift is 7 days duty, 2 days off and 5 days standby, 4 days of rest every month wwwwwwwooooooooowwwwwwww! and worst thing is i only got to know ytd and the course starts on mon! which means i have to fu*king do my clearance today

cb fu*king hell ask me go back do clearance for all my stuffs during my leave, what's worst is almost half of the in charge(s) are also clearing leave.. woke up early, not getting enough slp, carrying the duffel bag ard like an idiot.. ccb then the documentation clerk isn't in sg so i asked the chief clerk to help me sign the clearance form (as i wont be going back to semb camp anymore) then nb that bitch told me she wont sign the form then i said, but i wont be coming back.. then she say u wait for the doc clerk to come back then ask him sign !@#$%^& which simply means i have to go down to semb camp again as a visitor just to get a signature.. cool

24 hrs, 8 hours slp, 6 hrs for this expedition, 10 hrs of my leave left ahahahhaa booooo saf boooo

just now i had the mindset, the next person that gets me pissed, he/she would probably get it.. but after thinking through for awhile, why get so frustrated over the matter, just wasting my energy

oh and one last thing, doing office work is really tough, especially in ns, so pls respect ur frens or anyone that are doing admin work, they really have limited resources, and they still need to get their work done... RESPECT, salute to my fren civilian qf woah

fluctuating direction

and sea soldier, that is what i'll become very soon, but after the course, sembawang camp will still be my home for the rest of my service..

this week have been weird, and was kinda 'high' and not being myself since tuesday.. part of it was due to the life of shoko, the woman in yakuza moon.. very nice book and recommended by half of the ooc cohort.. quite arousing, but in a sad way

nvm abt that, u know, i always like to bet everything in my life, and this time, i'm gonna bet something again.. and deciding it with a 5 cents coin, the same age, as i am.. so here it goes:

i'm not flipping the coin yet, leaving for the end of this post..

always been taking the back seat of the car on the journey to the end of my life.. all my decisions were based on intuition, feeling, nothing which i really wanted? (not true to a certain extent) when people ask me, where to go eat? i would usually say anything, go with the crowd or something liddat.. this time, i fired the chauffeur and decided to get my hands on the wheel, which feels kinda good.. maybe sometimes when i dont know which way to go, i will still let go of the wheel and let it steer to the direction it wants to -.-

anyway, the extraordinary power i'd like to possess is not longer to read minds, but in a similar way, which is the ability to manipulate electric pulses and let them run in ur veins, enabling me to read minds and doing other things in addition -.- whatever

feel like making a change to my blog but dont know how it'd be like, once it is done, i guess it'd be a complete change

tried to take a pic of the result of my coin, but the result was too blurr

people

having served ns for close to 4 months, i've already seen some of the most fucked up, selfish, proud people in my life.. quite an eye opening experience but we cant possibly change everyone to behave the way u like ya? oh and if u think u are the laziest person in the world, u will be shocked feel that u are the most hardworking one in the cohort, or maybe the more hardworking ones

went to visit my injured fren, his gf was there, and his parents reach after we went for awhile.. i didnt did any of the talking, just somebody wth a certificate of participation.. but i know they had been there everyday after a hard day of work, looking at their son recovering..

my gramps isnt in a good state either, and i wouldnt want my sis's missed calls appearing on my hp screen....



and yes, gray would be a nice colour of the mood right now