with only 143 days left to my ord, worrying abt what i'm gonna do after that, working while studying perhaps?
anyway its really an irony anyone thinks that after ord there would be freedom. having 4 days of off and on the 4th day i'm not reporting to camp, i cant see that the same would happen in the near future. likely to be, ur 14 days of leave entitled would be used as a holiday, or for unforeseen events.
was thinking back abt the days in sec sch partly due to sat's gathering, where there were stupid things done. however that's not the point. a 3 years course that followed and few months of intensive physical training and character building to where i'm now, compared to the introverted shy quiet boy before, am i still a horse to bet on?
5 years ago, the horse on lane 13 with his jockey was definitely one to bet on, however, the horse didnt make the best out of its maturing phase and now, it seems to run its last race
on the verge of hitting the lowest point, the horse saw light, one which might have been the torchlight of the angels
no matter what the odds are, i doubt it'd be the last race for that horse, probably the first of many races, many difficult ones.
so i'll race, this crucial one, against time
